a single rose
Today was my 18 week OB appointment. The baby's heartbeat is fine. Phew. We feel relief for now and we celebrate another week that our little girl has had to live. The nurses seemed to have a difficult time at first finding the heartbeat, which was scary for me. They told me later that the baby kept rolling around, which made it harder to locate the heartbeat.
To celebrate, I bought myself a mango smoothie at Panera's. (Smile) Then, some pale pink roses-- five for Lydia in honor of her fifth birthday on Saturday and one for baby. Having visual images- both to remind me of our little one and to celebrate her life-- feel very important for me to have right now. I also feel strongly like I need to make something. I know that sounds strange, but maybe it is the creative side of me coming out at a time when words really do fall short. I have some empty canvases stacked up next to my dresser in my bedroom but have felt at a loss at what to put on them. A friend of mine encouraged me to just start, even without a clear image in mind. So even in this, it is walking ahead in faith.
I also want to fill my blog with more images, both found and created. I have to get a little more tech savvy and carve out time to do it. I think that being creative keeps my mind occupied and leaves less time and space to wallow.
So we give God praise that we have another week with our precious child.
Thank you, thank you, Lord Jesus.
To celebrate, I bought myself a mango smoothie at Panera's. (Smile) Then, some pale pink roses-- five for Lydia in honor of her fifth birthday on Saturday and one for baby. Having visual images- both to remind me of our little one and to celebrate her life-- feel very important for me to have right now. I also feel strongly like I need to make something. I know that sounds strange, but maybe it is the creative side of me coming out at a time when words really do fall short. I have some empty canvases stacked up next to my dresser in my bedroom but have felt at a loss at what to put on them. A friend of mine encouraged me to just start, even without a clear image in mind. So even in this, it is walking ahead in faith.
I also want to fill my blog with more images, both found and created. I have to get a little more tech savvy and carve out time to do it. I think that being creative keeps my mind occupied and leaves less time and space to wallow.
So we give God praise that we have another week with our precious child.
Thank you, thank you, Lord Jesus.
Praying, Adrienne. This is good news. Thankful for what we DO have!
ReplyDeleteTalk to you soon! Psalm 36 is a good one today...in YOUR light, we see light.
Eliz
You are so blessed with your family and friends that are close by to support you. I always go back to "Foot Prints" in the Sand", This has always brought me through difficult times. Always in my thoughts and prayers.
ReplyDeleteSusan